Internet has been salvaged! I am now writing from the comfort of my own home. I can also once again stay up on the latest tunes, and aimlessly search the net til four a.m. if I’d like. Not to mention get hot clothes for my sims. (i’m such a nerd, but I thought ya’ll knew that already.) Things have been okay for me. I’m single again which in and of itself is no large accomplishment because I left being with a really good guy, but it was something I had to do to learn how to be a better person. Anyone who knows me knows what THAT means. *read my lifestyle @ 106 N. McKinley Ave. when it came to dating* I haven’t always been the most monogamous type but for a while he was it, still might be, only time will tell. It already seems though that now that we aren’t together things are looking up for him, which somehow leads me to believe that I was poison in his water, but I shouldn’t think like that, cuz after all, I’m no poison, not even in the Bel Biv Devoe fashion. I’ve been getting leads on jobs from my job genie a.k.a. Otis, thanks man, always clue’in me in to the market and what pays what per hour. I like that in you. lol. The other day I went over my aunt’s house to visit cuz i haven’t been over there in a while. We’re all planning to go out tomorrow to put roses on my mom’s grave and go to dinner to celebrate her home going. I have been emotional all this week, crying over Sex and the City episodes, crying on the phone, pouring out my feelings all the time. I mean at first I thought, let me blame it on hormones, but that time of the month has come and gone. So I’m pretty much forced to believe that it’s a good ol case of missin my mama blues. I’ve been keepin up with every ones xangas and one thing that I notice is that everyone is at a more mature place in their lives where they are beginning to navigate adult life a little more smoothly than before. Sometimes I find that I have not even completely sailed the areas I have charted. I think somewhere between the Mediterranean and Red Sea I lost the map. So now I’m just cruisin hoping I don’t sail into the eye of another storm. What can I do with my life now that for me some of the worst is over? It’s enough to gain strength from the tests and trials and devastation of life, but where can I show off all this muscle? to be continued…