So it’s begun and I still don’t have a resolution. My goodness, I rolled into the new year crying like a baby. I’m not one to be bawling uncontrollably in front of people for any reason, especially not in front of my family. While everyone was counting down, I was behind the bar sobbing because I realized this was another year I had to ring in without my mama. I figured about 40 percent had to do with the liquor, 20 percent had to do with birth control hormones and the other 40 had to do with my genuine feelings. The liquor and bc just made it easier to let it flow. The last thing I wanted to do was cry in front of my brothers and sister and aunts and uncle and cousins at what was supposed to be a happy celebration and a new beginning, but I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t control it. For once in my life, I couldn’t control my emotions. Damn I’m getting old. New Year’s Day, I slept, for a very, long, time. What a way to ring in 2007. I’m still counting on this one being a good one. I don’t have a resolution for this year. I have faith. Faith that no matter what comes or who goes that God is as solid as a rock, so shall be my faith. I have lessons from last year that will make me a better person this year. One lesson that is at the top of the list is that I can only be me. I am a little bit of someone different to everyone depending on the relationship, but I’m still me, they just take the parts of me that suit what they like about me the best to describe who I am. And I can’t be defined as one single dimension, and so I will not try to fit myself into anyone’s mold. I can only be me.
On the other side of the game…I still love my pooh, I don’t have cable (7 months strong) and my computer at home broke down on me. I am also now being sued by Portfolio Recovery Associates for a credit card I had my freshman year at Ball State. go figure. I’m still good though. 
Taller Than Ur Average™ 