Okay. Maybe it’s destined for me not to have a car and a job. Either
simultaneously or separately. I was terminated for calling off during
the probationary period because my car broke down and I couldn’t find a
ride. My car is broken down, and now I have to get the transmission and
the radiator fixed, which we know is gonna cost a grip. I am waiting on
a “neighboorhood mechanic” to get back to me with some kind of an
estimate. All I know is he better hurry up and get back to me cuz funds
are limited and I wanna get the car fixed before all my money I saved
up for a rainy day like this one is gone. My brother Brian is finally
off at school. He is taking summer session at UIC (University of
Illinois – Chicago). He’ll be attending in the fall too. I’m glad that
he has finally gotten to where he wants to be. I only wish that he has
success at this school. Lord knows it’s nice having the house to myself
when the other two siblings are at school until two oclock. But summer
vacation is soon to come and that won’t last very long. I’m in a rough
spot financially and have limited mobility again. As evidenced through
most of my life though, this is nothing that I can’t pull through. I
wonder when the rope will break.

I have spent most of my time watching movies and playing the Sims in
addition to getting job leads. I just finished watching Crash. That
movie wasn’t at all what I expected. When I saw the trailer and they
were hyping up the fact that Larenz Tate and Ludacris were in it, I was
like, oh boy, what is this like Biker Boyz meet the Fast and the
Furious 2? But it was surprisingly deep. It also had a lot of A list
actors (Don Cheadle (who also had some producer credits I think),
Sandra Bullock, Matt Dillon, Brenden Fraser, Ryan Phillipe) to name a
few. I recommend it to anyone who hasn’t seen it.
How’s my love life you ask?
……………………………………………….. In the semi
famous words of Keyshia Cole, I just want it to be over. Not
completely, but I’ve kind of given falling in love the bird. I’m just
Being til I get the time and energy to actually fall in love without
too much complication. The complication is the fun part of it though,
sometimes. Other times I just want love to drop in my mailbox in a neat
little package all tied up with a silver bow. Like a birthday surprise
all year round. There are times when I think I got it all figured out,
then SIKE it’s gone again like a thief in the night. Tends to
desensitize a person. Therefore, I’ve decided that love ain’t two bits
of shit for the time being and I’m content on sex and play coupling.
It’s like that ya’ll. (c) M. Carey. Lawd help me, Ive been watching too
much BET.